I was considering these questions today. I'd love to hear your answers.
For me, I've been struggling to stay off the scale lately. I don't know what the heck happened! Seeing a number doesn't tell me anything I don't already know. It's never a surprise when I do step on the scale. It's super predictable to the point it should be boring, and yet I find myself overly curious lately. For the first time since I was a kid, my body is completely calling the shots. It's regulating. It's doing its thing. It's sort of a miracle to behold. I want to watch! How is it that I have some splurgy holiday fun and feel a little fluffy, but then without any deliberate action on my part, I find myself less hungry and my clothes getting loose again? This without "managing" my eating in any way. Maybe this is how it feels in a self-driving car when you let go of the steering wheel. It's hard to believe this not weighing thing safe and can work. What if we run over a pedestrian? I'd better look just to be sure things are ok.... So, basically every morning I'm feeling tempted to hop on the scale and have to remind myself not to. I'm hoping it goes back to being a non-issue shortly. Going weeks and months without thinking about weight at all is even more pleasant.
What I'm proud of lately is the level of self-trust I have around eating and exercise. I'm no longer looking for experts and outside sources to tell me what I should eat, when I should eat, or what kind of exercise is best. That search was like a full-time job for a couple of decades. I'd jump from book, to workout program, to blogger, to trainer searching for answers and advice, or at least confirmation that I was "doing it right." Now, it's obvious that my own body does this so much better than someone who has never met me! I know if I'm hungry and what will satisfy. The internet can't know this.
What are you struggling with or proud of these days?
I’m struggling with body image, particularly my belly. If I go too far down that track, I start thinking about starting a cut, which is the last thing I need. This has translated to me being on the scale more than I would like. Because I’m not liking what I’m seeing visually, I feel the need to confirm that my weight hasn’t moved much.
I’m proud of developing some work out consisteny, and how strong my legs and glutes feel. Tonight I did a pretty tough work out and thought, “All my muscles feel really well loved tonight.“ That is a huge mindset shift from a year ago, when I was still trying to wreck myself as often as possible.