Hi Ladies - I am after some advice.
I am finally after many many years of ever exercising under eating vegan hell i am choosing recovery with the help of a wonderful therapist and support team. This site is amazing and i have followed Swigg for years and recently started binge listening to and watching Tabitha Farraar who i am really enjoying. I am conquering a few fear foods and releasing the gym obsession however i cannot stop calorie counting. I have no idea how to eat without those numbers. I always try to keep to 1300 however yesterday i hit over 2000 and the guilt i feel is so extreme. Guilt because i am still hungry and can only imagine how much i would overshoot if i wasnt counting. How on earth do people eat and not count? How do they stay a standard size. I want out of this mental prison so badly but just cannot stop. My Fitness Pal was such a bad idea for me and i just cannot release it. How did you overcome this if it was something you did? I would appreciate anything you could offer.
Hi Sherlihy. I’ve been working on becoming a Happy Eater for the last couple of months, so all of this is very much a work in progress for me too. The way I started was to just eat anything I wanted. At the beginning, I had several days where I ate chocolate all day long. I probably at over 5000 calories and it was really scary. I felt the guilt and anxiety and out of control and thought “this will never end”. But it really doesn’t go on forever. My appetite has really started to go down and my plate looks like a “normal” amount now. I’ve been following my own rule - that if I trigger an anxiety attack when I go to get a food because that was previously on my “bad” list, that really means that I should eat it. Once you get into it, it is actually fun eating all the foods you’ve missed out on for so long. Also reading The F*ck it diet was really helpful for me starting this too.